2.02.2008

my shadow casts my future

i can see my shadow on the wall

the light shining from behind - and this wall sitting in front

i cant go back, for i will burn my eyes

i cant go forward, for i will run into my own shadow 

i feel stuck.  i feel itchy.  i fell like someone or something is rubbing raw the most sensitive parts of my soul

im not sure there is a lesson here

im not sure i have learned much these recent years

i hate being here right now

if i could i would move - away from earth - is that possible?

is there a place where there is no one else?  can you show me such a place?

a hundred swords in my chest

a thousand words from your tongue

a million thoughts descend from unravaged minds

a billion breaths sneak past my lips unnoticed

endless change finds me less solid, less stately than i was last year

these statues have started to rot - decay is the essence of death

find these words one day in the future, and understanding might find you again