a quick change of heart...

so i know everything i just wrote...and although i posted within the last hour, it took me a hot minute to piece it together.  

so my quick change isnt as quick as you thought...like you care.  

is this thing on?

i can say anything i want here and no one will care...amazing.

anyway, i just realized that some people just dont care.  whether they dont care about me or if i am grouped in with everyone else they dont really care about.  

so im acting bipolar...i hate you, i love you. i hate you.

point being, i am not sure any of those kinds of love exist...except with the one person, and you know who you are. 

i dont care enough about this post to actually get up and charge my computer.  i am just trying to beat the clock...11 minutes and counting till power is lost.

you might ask me, "ben, why dont you just save it and finish it later (T=minus 9 minutes - i just got the pop-up that says you are now running on reserve battery power [mac's kick ass]...and the automated voice that says, "you ass-clown..." and then fills in the blank with the information i am being alarmed to) ?" well, im lazy, if you havent figured it out...

so lazy that i am not even going to finish t....